There are certain topics that I have purposely avoided writing about, one of them being issues of the heart. I tend to stick to surface subjects, occasionally putting something out there once in a while. Today I have decided to delve right in.
I recently had an old wound re-opened, which made me realize it hadn’t been completely, 100% healed. Its been some time now since I’ve even had contact with him (being all the way across the world helped with that), and sometimes distance can be such a blessing. But, here’s the thing: distance doesn’t mend a broken heart, it only distracts the pain.
There was a ting of heartache, re-living past memories that were brought up; then all of a sudden there was this amazing moment when I realized what my life would have been had I chose that path. No Africa… no Israel… no obeying the true calling God has placed on my life… and all of a sudden that ting was replaced with the most incredible warmth, which can only be described as a mended heart.
This is not to say that I don’t go through spurts of loneliness or tings, but knowing that I’m living in the will of God helps to strengthen me when they come. Yes, I do want to fall in love, get married, and have a family, and sometimes I wish it would happen like, yesterday… but I know that God’s timing is perfect, and I must trust and wait for Him.
Look at me….I’m growing