Confessions of a Broken Heart

There are certain topics that I have purposely avoided writing about, one of them being issues of the heart. I tend to stick to surface subjects, occasionally putting something out there once in a while.  Today I have decided to delve right in.

I recently had an old wound re-opened, which made me realize it hadn’t been completely, 100% healed.  Its been some time now since I’ve even had contact with him (being all the way across the world helped with that), and sometimes distance can be such a blessing.  But, here’s the thing: distance doesn’t mend a broken heart, it only distracts the pain.  

There was a ting of heartache, re-living past memories that were brought up; then all of a sudden there was this amazing moment when I realized what my life would have been had I chose that path.  No Africa… no Israel… no obeying the true calling God has placed on my life… and all of a sudden that ting was replaced with the most incredible warmth, which can only be described as a mended heart.

This is not to say that I don’t go through spurts of loneliness or tings, but knowing that I’m living in the will of God helps to strengthen me when they come.  Yes, I do want to fall in love, get married, and have a family, and sometimes I wish it would happen like, yesterday… but I know that God’s timing is perfect, and I must trust and wait for Him.

Look at me….I’m growing

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About Maureen Hochdorf

Writer. Editor. High Techi. Non-Profit Founder. Traveler. Sports Lover. Star Wars Fanatic. Tel Aviver. Michigander.... View all posts by Maureen Hochdorf

8 responses to “Confessions of a Broken Heart

  • alece

    i’m so proud of you.

  • Andrea M.

    Thank you for sharing. Keep pressing on, one day at a time. God’s best is yet to come!

  • lovewillbringustogether

    Having had my own fair share of heartaches I’d like to share my ‘realisation’ – which it seems like you might have had yourself already anyway, but still, for what it is worth…

    I don’t believe we have much chance of forming a successful loving relationship ‘down here’ until we have formed one ‘up there’. I believe it is our Spirit that guides us to and through True Love and not our desire to find someone ‘special’.

    If we form that Relationship with Him, through Christ, and learn what True Love IS, that learning, that BEING, will draw to you whatever or whoever it is you most deserve.
    As you say, in the right time – His Time 🙂

    Like the song says…”You can’t Hurry Love…” ( welll, you CAN but it’s not generally a good idea, trust me on that!)

    Enjoy what He provides you and live Now always. 🙂

    But i think you already ‘get’ that huh? 😉

    P.S. in case you were wondering my blogname means ALL of ‘us’ 😉

    <B

  • Charlene

    so proud of you…and I am with ya. As a successful single that is pursuing God and the dreams HE has for me….I sometimes get lonely too…

    Love you and am soo proud of your “heartfelt” blog!

  • Claudia Poncos

    May I just say that being with someone does not make you complete unless you are complete before that…No person on this planet may take God’s place because when things go bad and you feel there is nowhere to turn to, your Father is always there to hold you and guide you…
    I am speaking from experience…You can actually hurt somebody by not being in God’s will…We both know that chances to be with somebody crossed our paths….but I cannot even begin to tell you how lonely it feels if that person is not going where God wants you to go…
    It is then when you fall on your knees and pray because there is more to your life then you yourself are ready to admit!!!Miracles are likely to happen such in my case and for God to open his eyes!!!
    But the moment it happens you will feel forever blessed to have waited for the right one to come along…speaking again from experience…and just to end in a positive note!!!it is all an ongoing battle with the self…with selfishness…with the flesh!!!it won’t get much easier when you are in a relationship you will just have someone to share it with!!!
    I am sure the right guy will come along and then you will be happy it didn’t happen yesterday..who knows what yesterday might have brought!!.-)))
    love ya Maureen
    Claudia

  • Rafa

    yes, you are growing.. I’m proud of you and praying some of that over my life.. hehe
    love ya

  • Charlie Maes

    I totally understand. I was married for 4 years and got a blow that felt like a punch to the stomach. My niece had died that year, so I wasn’t as caring or attentive as I should have been. I never saw it coming. I guess it didn’t help that we were both quite natured people to begin with.
    But, to the point, I strugle and wonder if GOD has that special person out there for me, or did that pass me by?
    Keep your chin up, your a beautiful woman with a great heart.

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