Lets face it; everyone suffers from disappointment in life. It comes and goes, and the truth is, when we put our expectations into something (or someone) here on earth, we run the risk of being disappointed.
Yesterday it happened to me. A few months ago I had submitted an essay for a scholarship award, which would pretty much pay for my entire year of schooling (and then some in which I could put toward the youth center). I really wanted to win. I put my heart into my writing, only to find out I wasn’t selected.
Immediately all the negative thoughts swirled around in my mind: I’m just not a good writer. Why did I even think I had a chance? Why did I even bother in the first place?
Thoughts which only then led to fears: Well, now what? How will I pay for school? How will I afford the youth center each month? Maybe I shouldn’t even be here…..
Then I took a breath and this verse popped into my mind: Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. (Proverbs 3:5)
And HIS voice reassured me: I brought you here, not that contest. Trust in me and I will supply all your needs.
Its what I needed to hear. I had placed my hope in that essay. I had depended on that money for my needs. I looked upon the earth instead of the heavens. And I had let it overcome my thoughts.
Am I still a bit disappointed? Yes.
Will I give up and lose hope? No.
…and once again I’m brought back to the one verse that sustains me in times of trails, disappointment, heartache, saddness, fear, and all else… For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.