To say this has been a difficult week for me is an understatement! I feel like I’ve been to hell and back and I’m trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m trying to remain positive, but I’ll be perfectly honest…. I’m not always succeeding. I feel like its just one thing after the other, and I am running low on strength.
Some of it has to do with the stress I’m under with these papers from school (which, I will admit… its my own fault that I’ve left them to the last minute), but its much more than that. There are moments, living where I live, that are even a bit too overwhelming for me to handle.
A couple of days ago I actually punched a guy. He followed me home (at 6:30 am) and tried to get inside. After already have been grabbed by someone else the day before I just lost it. I punched him, shoved him away from the door, and slammed it in his face. Though I know it was self-defense and the right thing to do, it was emotional and stressful for me.
Then the next day, after a serious of events that I won’t get into, my dog disappeared. It was my roommate’s fault, and I’m trying to show grace to her, but its HARD!!! I’m extremely upset and mad, and I feel like I’ve lost the one comfort I had each day. On top of that, its finals week and I have my Hebrew Final tomorrow and Arabic coming up after that.
My emotions are raw, my stress level is rising, and I’m just spent! I’ve cried just about every day this week, for some reason or another, and I need grace. If you could shout out a little prayer for me today, I would be sooooooo grateful! I know these things are all temporary, but I just wanna know…. Is it over yet????