Most people relate “fitting in” to the teen-age or middle-school-age years when finding your crowd can come with many challenges. Being a former middle-school teacher, I’ve seen my fare share of kids trying to change and be someone they’re not in order to fit in with a group they want to be in. Not a fun time!
Fortunately, I never really struggled with the “fitting in” issue in school (not that I didn’t have other issues) but that wasn’t one of them.
Unfortunately, I struggle with it more now, as an adult.
It’s not for a lack of friends, cuz to be honest I have some GREAT ones! It’s also not for a lack of wanting to be in a group that I’m not in either…. the truth is: many times I just have a difficult time relating to others.
Living around the world in various cultures is a tremendous calling, but it’s also changed me beyond words. Each new place has impacted me in new ways and changed my outlook and actions toward life, as well as changing me on the inside. I’ve taken treasures from each culture, which translates into me becoming a “melting pot” of sorts.
While all this is wonderful and great, here’s the problem… I never 100% fit in.
When I go home to The States, I find it difficult to relate to others, as the “American” in me has dwindled down to less and less over the years. Sure, I still love my country and the Detroit Red Wings (had to get that one in, Joseph) but there’s only so far you can go with these topics.
I could give examples from each place: Brazil, Africa, Israel… but it boils down to this… I rarely feel like I really fit in anywhere, and sometimes it’s a lonely, difficult cross to bare.
Although there probably aren’t too many people here on earth who truly understand me, I KNOW there is someone up there who does! And Someday…. well, it’s one place I know I’ll fit in 🙂