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Is it over yet???

To say this has been a difficult week for me is an understatement!  I feel like I’ve been to hell and back and I’m trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I’m trying to remain positive, but I’ll be perfectly honest…. I’m not always succeeding. I feel like its just one thing after the other, and I am running low on strength.

Some of it has to do with the stress I’m under with these papers from school (which, I will admit… its my own fault that I’ve left them to the last minute), but its much more than that.  There are moments, living where I live, that are even a bit too overwhelming for me to handle.

A couple of days ago I actually punched a guy.  He followed me home (at 6:30 am) and tried to get inside.  After already have been grabbed by someone else the day before I just lost it.  I punched him, shoved him away from the door, and slammed it in his face.  Though I know it was self-defense and the right thing to do, it was emotional and stressful for me.

Then the next day, after a serious of events that I won’t get into, my dog disappeared.  It was my roommate’s fault, and I’m trying to show grace to her, but its HARD!!! I’m extremely upset and mad, and I feel like I’ve lost the one comfort I had each day.  On top of that, its finals week and I have my Hebrew Final tomorrow and Arabic coming up after that.

My emotions are raw, my stress level is rising, and I’m just spent!  I’ve cried just about every day this week, for some reason or another, and I need grace.  If you could shout out a little prayer for me today, I would be sooooooo grateful!  I know these things are all temporary, but I just wanna know…. Is it over yet????


In Memory of Katherine

There are few people that become a part of your life and remain there until the end. Those special few that know each and every secret you possess….those special few that you can call on no matter what, and they will answer…those special few that love you unconditionally, regardless of what you’ve done or will do.

For me, Katherine was one of those special ones.

We met while I was living in Brazil, I cannot even remember which year, and instantaneously we became the best of friends.  We’ve been through so much together since then…boyfriend breakups, heartaches, traveling, weddings (one of them being hers), road trips, laughter, joy, and all the other things that accompanies friendships.

Every time I came home to the States on furlough, Katherine was one of the first people I would call.  Just hearing her voice on the phone and her crazy, contagious laugh would brighten my day.  She was one of the first who would always send me notes, cards, and packages in the mail. She always told me how much she loved me and was proud of me.  She encouraged me with scriptures all the time. I loved her more than words can express.

Katherine passed away from breast and bone cancer this past week, only 29 years old, and 5 months pregnant. It was a sudden and tragic situation, one that left many of us who loved her shocked.  She left behind an amazing husband and one-year old boy, both of whom she loved with all her heart!

Even though I know, without a shadow of a doubt, my dear Katherine is in heaven today, enjoying our Abba Father, thoughts of her still cause the tears to flow down my cheeks.  So, in memory of one of the best friends I have ever had the pleasure of enriching my life, here are some of those memories that I will cherish until we meet again….

The last two pictures are with her husband, Jared and little Nathan Charles Bowman.  Please keep them in your prayers, as they will miss their wife and mommy sooooo much!!!

Katherine: you were a wonderful woman, wife, mother, sister, daughter, photographer… and to me, most of all you were the bestest of friends!


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