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2 Days and Counting

I leave for Israel in two days!!!!!  I have so many mixed emotions right now…excited yet nervous…anxious but a little overwhelmed.  As I prepare to leave, I think back to where I’ve been and all the memories of Brazil and Africa.  The good, the bad, and the ugly: all have shaped me into the person I am right now and where I’ll be in the future.  I feel like I’m at a major turning point in my life, which brings back all the emotions all over again.

To add to the pot, last night we had Rick Renner as a guest speaker at our church, and his message was great.  I felt like so much of what he said was applicable with what I’m facing now.  I took home lots of good nuggets from his message, but what inspired me the most was his personal story.  Rick and his family have been serving in Russia for over 15 years!  He started with nothing but faith and baby steps, and now he has one of the biggest ministries covering all of Russia.

As for me, I am also ready to begin taking these small steps in order to fulfill God’s plan for my life. Thats what this vision trip is all about…stepping out of the boat and putting words into action.  I will try to post when I can while I’m there (I’m sure I’ll have millions of things to say), so until we meet again…..



There are many adjustments you must make when you go on the field as a missionary, and one of them over the years has been getting used to the lack of entertainment….or shall I say, American entertainment. I have not had a TV for the past year and a half, no movie theater, no radio station, sporting events etc. You find ways creative ways to make up for these losses; most popular being DVD’s.  I can honestly say that I have watched my DVD’s about a 1000 times, depending on which mood I am in.

Since our American community is pretty small here, we all share and borrow each others DVD’s.  You find yourself watching movies and series you normally wouldn’t even care about, but since the choices are slim, you watch it anyways.  So, here it begins:  I just finished Season 1 of Alias and I am totally addicted!  I know this show is super old in the States (its been over for years now), but I am just watching it for the first time. Last night I watched the final episode of the season, and I am dying to start Season 2.  That’s the beauty of watching seasons on DVD’s.  You don’t have to wait.  No commercials!  No weeks off from writers strike! No summer hiatus!  Just episode after episode!  Its a thing of beauty.

Now that I am going to begin Season 2, I’m thinking back to the other shows I have watched here on DVD…Heroes, 24, Grey’s Anatomy, Felicity, and now Alias.  I will admit that I’m not a huge fan of all those shows, but one of the first things I will do when I get back to the states is rent Season 6 of 24 (We only had 1-5).  And now who knows…the second thing might be to join the CIA!  I think I can totally be Sydney with a little training 🙂



During my sisters visit, I was pulled over for speeding by the radar trap 😦  Unfortunately, this has not been my first time (more like my 4th or 5th), BUT…. fortunately I was able to talk my way out of it!  I seem to have a gift for both getting myself pulled over, and receiving a warning instead of a ticket. (I have actually only been given 1 ticket)  Either they need to change the speed limit or I need to slow down…..I have a feeling which of the two will have to occur.  Oh, and thank you so much, Kristy, for thinking it was funny enough to take a picture of the event! The picture shows me looking at my speed in the radar.  They find it necessary to personally show you how much faster you were going than should be.


Maybe it’s the knowledge that in a couple of days everyone back home will be celebrating Thanksgiving with family and friends….the realization that it officially brings in the holiday season. Maybe its the fact that I’ve been listening to Christmas music for 2 days now. Maybe its the idea of spending the holidays far away from my family, even though its been more of a common denominator than being with them. Maybe its the hustle and bustle of Christmas shopping, the smells of homebaked cookies, the decorated Christmas trees and lights in each house. Maybe its all those things combined that add up to the one issue: I am homesick!!!

Joy in the midst of darkness

Waking up this morning left me with lingering thoughts of wanting to just curl back up in bed, drink my coffee, and read a good book…for it was overcast, rainy, and chilly; not the typical African morning.

So, after the mental prodding that went on in my head I finally arose and got ready for work. I was feeling sluggish all day, wishing I was home, until an unexpected surprise awaited me. I had received a package from my dear friend Kathyrn. I immediately ripped it open, like a child anticipating a Christmas gift. I was so excited to see the contents inside! From that point on, my day took on a whole new meaning.

I know I have said this before, but it deserves repeating…there is nothing like receiving a package in the mail! Until you live far away from home, in a place where none of the modern conveniences are available, you won’t quite be able to understand the joy that goes along with this small gesture of giving. I mean, when was the last time you got excited about receiving a tube of mascara, coffee, and some unmentionable girly items???

I’ll say it till I’m blue in the face….its the small things in life!!!!! The next time you are enjoying a tall pumpkin spice latte or a mochachino at your local wateringhole, take a moment and savor it all in……if not for yourself, please do it for me. I can settle to live vicariously through all of you!!!!

City Girl

I didn’t realize how much of a city girl I am until I had a mini-meltdown yesterday. I have now been here in Maun since January of this year, so almost 10 months. Yesterday was the first day that I began to feel restless about where I live. I have grown so accustomed to traveling all the time, even if it’s on weekends here and there. During outreach season I was so busy and traveling non-stop that it didn’t fase me much. But now things have slowed down, and I’ve been back in town for a while now. (Did I say town??? I meant village)

There is no other way to put it, but an overwhelming feeling of restlessness inside of me, when I am stuck in one place for too long. And not to mention a place with literally NOTHING here. Needless to say, I got a little stir-crazy and almost got in my car and just drove off (not that there is anywere close to drive to).

Thank God for Micheal and Heather, who realized my pain, and took me out to lunch and basically just let me cry on their shoulders. Sometimes, as girls, we just need a good cry. I hadn’t had one in a while, so I was due.

So as a conclusion, we decided that I need a little “mini-vacation” to go somewhere with civilization….to curb my cravings of the city life again. To watch a movie or two… to get a frappacino or iced coffee… to actually drive on roads with pavement and road lines… to see a shopping mall or stores again… to feel the vibe of the city once more permeating through my veins. I’m getting energized once more just thinking about it all.

Now the question is…where will I go and when? J’burg, South Africa is about a 16 hour drive, and the only “city” we have here in Botswana is Gabarone, the capital, a 10 hour drive. Well like the song says, “Life is a highway, I wanna ride it all night long.” And from the looks of it…I will be riding it all night long. 🙂 BUT IT WILL BE TOTALLY WORTH IT!

You can take the girl out of the city….but you can’t take the city out of the girl!

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